Oh Boy.

I mean, how do you sum up all that's happened this year?  ((I backdated a previous blog entry so my "Event" will appear chronologically, and to cover up explain nearly 4 months of not posting!))

Y'all, I should be dead. Twice.

But God still has work for me to do.  I get to bring more glory to His Name here!  He has done so much for me...so much only He could do.  I hope to document those big events soon.  Maybe even today!

It's one thing to say that God knows the plans He has for me (Jer 29:11), that He knows the exact number of my days (Ps 139:16, Job 14:5), that God put me here in this time and place on purpose (Acts 17:26)...and it's one thing to know these things in my mind are absolutely true--

And it's an entirely other thing altogether to KNOW these truths experiencially!  When the ideas are purified...and you are left shaking...realizing that the only security you have is in KNOWING Christ, and feeling safe in Him.  He controls my hours, my breaths, my Life.

I have heard many times over the years from Christians that "you're just one heart attack away from eternity" or "live like Christ returns tomorrow"...or the modified version "live today like you'll see Christ tomorrow"...and we should.  But the reality is, until our lives are completely OUT of our control do we truly realize that we really didn't have any control to begin with.  I know I lived like I thought I had control.  I plan, I procrastinate, I wallow, I wait, I whine, I, I, I... instead of thank you, thank you, thank you.

We are all undeserving of even our next breath.  But God loves, so graciously loves us and uses us to bring glory and others to Him.  I am so grateful for more days to do just that.